Stepping.Up.My.Game.

I realized this past week that I'm a lucky girl.  I'm considered obese.  My BMI is way over 30 and I'm sure most normal sized people are mildly grossed out when they look at me.  Yet, all things considered, I'm pretty healthy.  I have the fat people issues that most obese people have  - exercise induced asthma, sore feet, bad back and the inability to get up gracefully from the floor.  But my health is generally pretty good, no high blood pressure or skyrocketing cholesterol.  I'm lucky.  This became even more clear to me this past week when Jess started having some serious health issues and she (along with Kim) would only be considered mildly overweight.  It occurred to me that I am wasting this luck and letting my ladies down by not committing fully to our weight loss program.  I spent all of last week not meeting any of our challenges, not really caring and then Jess had those serious health issues brought to her attention and a light went off in my head.

I have wasted 36 years abusing and neglecting the only body I'll have in this life.  And I need to grow up and quit ruining my own body.  If I want to be healthy and happy, it requires a committment to proper eating and daily exercise.  It's time to stop the excuses and the whining and just do it.  I have a problem, I'm addicted to food and it's time to stop ignoring that problem or complaining that it's too hard to change and just change.  My life depends on it.

So, here I am.  Ready to fully commit to a lifestyle change with my ladies so that we all end up happy and healthy and becoming the three saucy old women, sitting at the bus stop making inappropriate comments to the hot men who pass us by, that we are destined to become.

It's funny, Kim was mentioning that she is obsessed with the scale, that she can't stop herself from hopping on it, sometimes a few times a day, and being elated or disappointed by what she sees.  I seem to run the opposite way, I like to avoid the scale, especially if I know I haven't been following the program the way that I should.  I don't want to see the numbers, to know that I've gone up because I couldn't follow a simple program of eating healthy and exercising for 30 minutes a day.  So I avoid it and it makes it easier to not care about what I'm eating or if I'm not drinking my water.  That ends today.  I'll be stepping on that scale every Monday morning, regardless of how my week has gone, to keep myself accountable to my actions.  I owe it to myself and to my ladies. 

Not sure what our challenge is this week, the ladies and I will discuss that tomorrow morning and I'll post about it tomorrow night. Regardless of what it is, I'm vowing to follow it every single day for seven days, as well as continuing with our previous challenges of drinking 8 glasses of water every day and not eating after 8pm.  It's time to take control.

Finally a big shout out to my girl Jess - down three pounds this week!  Way to go girlie, I am SO PROUD of you!!